Today is A mourning, How can it’s not? when you started the day with pessimism bout how bad your day will go wrong .
I know it sounds intolerably miserable, With an empty feeling inside and you don’t know what to believe anymore. The worst part is, you don’t know what to do with your own perceptions and ideas, like if you still can trusts them?
It gets you to some point when you feel "Zero" or "Nothing" , it’s not that you regret "who you are things", but this, really something "Alien". you don’t know "How" and "What" to explain… so pathetic, right?